Thursday, April 1, 2010

the lost mind




Named after the great physician,philosopher and
scholar,the
tunisian psychiatric hospital , namely El Razi, was believed to be a place which holds a glimpse of hope for those suffering from mental illnesses. Yet, this image soon disappeared to become a fading memory, soon replaced by bleak reality, that of madness. It saddens me to hear of those, who not only suffers from self-estrangement, but they are also met with much indifference by people who are expected to understand them the most. A visit to that hospital would give you a better insight into their bitter life. I was shocked to learn from one of my friends who is a medicine student, that psychiatry is not only the less desired branch by med students, but is also the one where students with the lowest scores, in other words who were not accepted by other medical branches, are sent to. Imagine this! People who have the least interest in such a field are thrown into this chaos. I do not want to overgeneralize or judge. I do have respect for doctors who are out there spending their time and energy trying to fix what a life-time of pain and injustice have ruined. Yet, I cannot help but to express my outrage and disgust. Surprisingly, the tales of this hospital and its dwellers have been used as material of moral lessons or even worse of jokes. Over the years, their tales never ceased to awaken my thoughts. Over the years, I learnt how to forget or was it that I chose to? However, there are two moments kidnapped from the lives two patients, that I cannot forget. The first is about a suicidal patient who was often held in a solitary room since he could not be trusted around any sharp objects or other people. He was put all alone, isolated from others. Yet, they served him food with metal forks. He managed to hide a couple, which he used days later to cut the thin wire netting of the window and jump from a height that caused him immediate death. How can they be so ignorant? Metal forks? Another man climbed into those ventilating systems, and fell on his head. He remained there for a month before being found a rotten corpse. Sadly, it was the smell that made them find the dead body. It seems that they did not notice that a human being, a life was missing. Now, that I am not that child anymore, the physician El Razi crosses my way every day on my early morning bus ride. There, the philosopher, El razi stands with the pain of the lost mind, musing upon the failure of world that worships sanity. El Razi, the human being inside of you, I salute you for all chaos you have brought to make us believe in our insanity as part of being human.

fragile freedom

tunisia! here is a thought : get a life ! !


coming soon...

Sunday, March 28, 2010

identity?


زيف خصوصية الهوية الإسلامية...بقلم اسماعيل حسني. روزاليوسف العدد 4268 - السبت 27 مارس

الهوية الخاصة لشعب ما ليست سوي مصطلح مزيف آخر يتوسع المتطرفون علي اختلاف ألوانهم في استخدامه لتبرير أفكار استعلائية أو عنصرية لا تستقيم مع منظومة القيم الإنسانية المتعارف عليها. ويهدف هذا المصطلح إلي ادعاء تميز أصحاب عرق أو دين ما عن غيرهم من البشر في سمات بيولوجية أو فكرية من أجل توظيف هذا الشعور الجمعي بالتميز في توجيه الأفراد نحو تبني موقف بذاته، كالمطالبة بحقوق خاصة، أو فرض وصاية علي الغير، أو فرض أيديولوجية معينة علي المجتمع. وينتشر هذا المصطلح الفاشي بسهولة كبيرة بين العامة لما يقوم به من تضخيم الذات خاصة في أوقات الهزائم والانكسارات، أو تخفيف حدة الشعور بالذنب تجاه جرائم ترتكب بحق الغير.

ولقد رأينا عبر التاريخ كيف استخدمت هذه الهويات الخاصة uniqueness في تبرير مختلف الجرائم التي ارتكبت بحق البشرية، فخصوصية الرجل الأبيض استخدمت لتبرير جرائم الأوروبيين الاستعمارية وتجارة العبيد، والخصوصية الهندوسية استخدمت في تبرير الإجحاف الهندوسي ضد المنبوذين والمسلمين والمسيحيين في الهند، وخصوصية الجنس الآري استخدمت في تبرير جرائم النازية، وخصوصية ما يسمي بالشعب اليهودي «شعب الله المختار» استخدمت في تبرير احتلال فلسطين وتشريد أهلها، وباسم العشيرة والقبيلة والأمة والقومية والثقافة والعنصر والعرق واللون والدين والجنس واللغة علي وجه العموم، ارتكبت شتي الجرائم والحماقات، ولعل أصدق من عبر عن تلك الخصوصية المزعومة هو الحبر الإسرائيلي إبراهام كوك بقوله: إن الفرق بين روح اليهودي وروح غير اليهودي، هو أعظم وأعمق من الفرق بين روح الإنسان وروح الماشية! إننا نفهم الخصوصية البيولوجية في عالم الحيوان، والخصوصية الكيميائية في عالم المادة، أما في عالم الإنسان فيستحيل أن يقبل من أي منطق ديني أو قومي إطلاق هذا المصطلح علي مجتمع بشري، فالمجتمعات البشرية تعيش في حركة دائمة من اختلاط الأعراق والأجناس والثقافات عبر الهجرات ومختلف وسائل التواصل بين الشعوب، ولا يوجد شعب يمكن أن يدعي نقاء عرقيا أو هوية خاصة، اللهم إلان كان يقصد بها تلك الحالة التي كان عليها البشر في المجتمعات القديمة، حيث كانت حقوق الإنسان وواجباته تتحدد فقط وفق موقعه في المجتمع القبلي أو الإقطاعي الذي ينتمي إليه، ولم يكن معترفا بهذه الحقوق علي النطاق الإنساني العام خارج هذا المجتمع، ولكن مع ظهور الرأسمالية وميلها للتوسع المستمر، تعولم المجتمع البشري وأخذت تلك الخصوصيات القديمة في الاندثار، وساد مفهوم الإنسان المجرد باعتباره إنسانا وبصرف النظر عن انتماءاته العرقية والدينية وعن الموقع الاجتماعي الذي يشغله.

إن مسألة الخصوصية الجماعية أيا كانت قومية أم دينية هي مجرد وهم يختلقه البعض لأسباب سياسية محضة، ذلك أن الأفراد الذين يدعون هذه الخصوصية أو تلك وأنها تجمعهم لا يتماثلون ولا يتطابقون في الحقيقة، إذ إن كلا منهم يحتفظ بخصوصيته وفرديته التي تتمايز عن الآخرين، وهذه الخصوصية الفردية هي الخصوصية الحقيقية والواقعية والوحيدة في هذا العالم.

لا شك أن لكل مجموعة سكانية المحتوي الأخلاقي والفكري والجمالي الذي يوجه السلوك الفردي ويحدد الفعل الاجتماعي بين أفرادها، وكذلك تتشابه القضايا التي يعتبرها أفراد هذا المجتمع أولي باهتمامهم، إلا أن المجتمعات البشرية دائمة التطور والتغير والتأثر بالمجتمعات الأخري في جميع هذه المجالات، ومن ثم فلا خلود أو قداسة لحالة ثقافية يعيشها أي مجتمع في لحظة ما، فهل نستطيع أن نقول أن عناصر الثقافة المصرية منذ أربعة آلاف عام لم تتغير حتي الفتح العربي، ولم تتغير ثانية منذ الغزو العثماني، ثم منذ الحملة الفرنسية وإلي الآن، أو أن الهوية اليابانية لم يطرأ عليها تغييرات جذرية منذ منتصف القرن التاسع عشر ثم منذ الحرب العالمية الثانية من مجتمع منغلق يقدس الإمبراطور إلي مجتمع علمي ديموقراطي منفتح.

إن المجتمعات البشرية المعاصرة قد أصبحت مجتمعات متعددة الأعراق والثقافات المتداخلة والمتشابكة مما ينفي أي ادعاء بخصوصية جماعية لأي شعب ويفرض ثقافة عالمية جديدة تظل الجميع بظلها.

ويسعي المتطرفون في كل دين ومذهب لإثبات تلك الخصوصية المزعومة من خلال الادعاء بتميز عقيدتهم وتفوقها، فنجدهم جميعا يتفاخرون بالعبارات الإنشائية العامة نفسها التي يمكن أن تنطبق علي كل دين ومذهب وملة. من هذا ما يذكره الحاخام بيريل وين في كتابه «الإيمان والقدر»: إن الشريعة اليهودية هي الطريقة الشاملة للحياة التي أرادها الله للإنسان، وهي علي الرغم من أنها إلهية المصدر إلا أنها تتميز بالإنسانية والوضوح والعمق والواقعية والمرونة. وهو الكلام نفسه الذي يقوله يوسف القرضاوي في كتابه «الخصائص العامة للإسلام»: إن للإسلام سبع خصائص تميزه عن غيره من الأديان وهي الربانية، والإنسانية، والشمول، والوسطية، والواقعية، والوضوح، والجمع بين الثبات والمرونة. ونترك للقارئ الحكم علي هذا الكلام الدعائي الفضفاض الذي تستخدمه أدبيات جميع الديانات السماوية وغير السماوية في وصف نفسها وتعتبرها صفات تخص هذه الديانة أو تلك وحدها دون غيرها.

ولقد قام متطرفونا من أعلام الكهنوت الإسلامي بغسل عقولنا وزرع فكرة خصوصية الهوية الإسلامية فيها من أجل ضرب عدة عصافير بحجر واحد. فهم من ناحية يلقون في روعنا أن هويتنا هوية دينية وليست هوية إنسانية، رغم أن الإنسانية صفة ملاصقة للإنسان وملازمة له، بينما العقيدة الدينية من الخصائص الثقافية المتغيرة، فالإنسان قد يغير دينه أو مذهبه ولكنه يبقي إنسانا، والشعب المصري مثلا قام خلال تاريخه المدون بتغيير دينه ومذهبه عدة مرات دون أن يؤثر ذلك علي أسلوب معيشته وعاداته وتقاليده من حيث الجوهر. ومن ناحية أخري فتلك الخصوصية تعني أن ما ينطبق علي غيرنا من نظم وقيم وأعراف، لا ينطبق بالضرورة علينا، فنحن مسلمون ويجب أن نحكم بقوانين خاصة تستوحي من هذه الخصوصية الدينية المزعومة. ومن ناحية ثالثة تستخدم هذه الخصوصية في تأصيل رفض الآخر وحرمان غير المسلمين في المجتمعات الإسلامية من بعض أو كل حقوقهم الإنسانية.

وإذا حاولنا أن نتفحص هذه الخصوصية التي يدعي مشايخنا أنها تفرق بيننا وبين غيرنا من البشر فلن نجد لها ملامح محددة أو سمات فارقة غير العبارات الإنشائية الفضفاضة التي ذكرناها آنفا، ذلك أننا حين نتحدث عن الإسلام فنحن لا نتحدث عن شيء واحد، ومنهج واحد، وفلسفة واحدة، ومزاج واحد، بل نتحدث عن عدة مناهج وفلسفات وأمزجة كل منها يسمي نفسه إسلاما، وتصدر عن كل منها نظرة مختلفة تماما للوجود وللإنسان ولعلاقة هذا الإنسان بالخالق. فإذا تحدثنا هنا عن خصوصية لزم أن نتحدث عن عدة خصوصيات إسلامية وليس عن خصوصية واحدة. إن الإسلام الذي يعيش بيننا اليوم هو إسلام الجبرية والقدرية والمرجئة والأشاعرة، هو إسلام الظاهرية وإسلام الباطنية، هو إسلام السنة وإسلام الشيعة، هو إسلام الأزهر وإسلام الوهابية وإسلام الطرق الصوفية، هو إسلام الاثني عشرية والزيدية والإسماعيلية والأباضية والبابية والعلوية والقاديانية ... إلي آخر هذه الفرق التي لم يعصمها اتفاقها علي أصول العقيدة وهي الألوهية والنبوة واليوم الآخر من أن تختلف في الكثير من الفروع والعبادات والأحكام اختلافات هائلة تصل إلي حد التناقض وتكفير كل منها للآخر.

والجدير بالذكر أن الإعلام الغربي يساهم بجهد وفير في ترسيخ وتدعيم هذا الإحساس الوهمي لدينا بالخصوصية، كدليل علي وجودنا خارج مسيرة الحضارة، واغترابنا عن عالم اليوم، ومن أمثلة هذا الجهد، أن أي حديث عن بلد عربي لابد أن تكون خلفيته التليفزيونية عبارة عن جمل أو عربة حنطور وصفوف من المصلين، وإذا تحدثوا عن الهجرة غير الشرعية كان الحجاب وصفوف المصلين في الخلفية، وعند الحديث عن الإرهاب لابد أن تمزج الخلفية بصفوف المصلين والملثمين والمسلحين.

لقد آن الأوان أن ندرك أننا بشر كأي بشر آخرين في هذا العالم، وأننا نعيش بنفس النواميس الكونية التي يعيش بها الآخرون، وأن القوانين والنظم والقيم والمبادئ التي تنطبق علي غيرنا من البشر تنطبق علينا سواء بسواء، وأنه لا توجد خصوصية بيولوجية أو فكرية لأية جماعة بشرية علي وجه الأرض، هذه الخصوصية الوهمية التي يستخدمها رجال الدين للتسلط علي عقولنا، وتستخدمها الأنظمة في تبرير استبدادها بحقوقنا وإبعاد قيم المدنية الحديثة عن حدودنا.

The Arab condition

Why do the Arabs never pool their resources to fight for the causes which officially, at least, they support. And how much further can we sink, asks Edward Said

Edward Said

My impression is that many Arabs today feel that what has been taking place in Iraq over the last two months is little short of a catastrophe. True, Saddam Hussein's regime was a despicable one in every way and it deserved to be removed. Also true is the sense of anger many feel at how outlandishly cruel and despotic that regime was, and how dreadful has been the suffering of Iraq's people. There seems little doubt that far too many other governments and individuals connived to keep Saddam Hussein in power, looking the other way as they went about their business as usual. Nevertheless, the only thing that gave the US license to bomb the country and destroy its government was neither a moral right nor a rational argument but sheer military power. Having for years supported Ba'athist Iraq and Saddam Hussein himself, the US and Britain arrogated to themselves the right to negate their own complicity in his despotism, and then to state that they were liberating Iraq from his hated tyranny. And what now seems to be emerging in the country both during and after the illegal Anglo-American war against the people and civilisation that is the essence of Iraq represents a very grave threat to the Arab people as a whole.

It is of the utmost importance that we recall in the first instance that, despite their many divisions and disputes, the Arabs are in fact a people, not a collection of random countries passively available for outside intervention and rule. There is a clear line of imperial continuity that begins with Ottoman rule over the Arabs in the 16th century until our own time. After the Ottomans in World War One came the British and the French, and after them, in the period following World War Two, came America and Israel. One of the most insidiously influential strands of thought in recent American and Israeli Orientalism, and evident in American and Israeli policy since the late 1940s, is a virulent, extremely deep-seated hostility to Arab nationalism and a political will to oppose and fight it in every possible way. The basic premise of Arab nationalism in the broad sense is that, with all their diversity and pluralism of substance and style, the people whose language and culture are Arab and Muslim (call them the Arab-speaking peoples, as Albert Hourani did in his last book) constitute a nation and not just a collection of states scattered between North Africa and the western boundaries of Iran. Any independent articulation of that premise was openly attacked, as in the 1956 Suez War, the French colonial war against Algeria, the Israeli wars of occupation and dispossession, and the campaign against Iraq, a war the stated purpose of which was to topple a specific regime but the real goal of which was the devastation of the most powerful Arab country. And just as the French, British, Israeli and American campaign against Abdel-Nasser was designed to bring down a force that openly stated as its ambition the unification of the Arabs into a powerful independent political force, the American goal today is to redraw the map of the Arab world to suit American, and not Arab, interests. US policy thrives on Arab fragmentation, collective inaction, and military and economic weakness.

One would have to be foolish to argue that the nationalism and doctrinaire separateness of individual Arab states, whether the state is Egypt, Syria, Kuwait or Jordan, is a better thing, a more useful political actuality than some scheme of inter-Arab cooperation in economic, political and cultural spheres. Certainly I see no need for total integration, but any form of useful cooperation and planning would be better than the disgraceful summits that have disfigured our national life, say, during the Iraq crisis. Every Arab asks the question, as does every foreigner: why do the Arabs never pool their resources to fight for the causes which officially, at least, they claim to support, and which, in the case of the Palestinians, their people actively, indeed passionately believe in?

I will not spend time arguing that everything that has been done to promote Arab nationalism can be excused for its abuses, its short-sightedness, its wastefulness, repression and folly. The record is not a good one. But I do want to state categorically that, since the early 20th century, the Arabs have never been able to achieve their collective independence as a whole or in part exactly because of the designs on the strategic and cultural importance of their lands by outside powers. Today, no Arab state is free to dispose of its resources as it wishes, nor to take positions that represent that individual state's interests, especially if those interests seem to threaten US policies. In the more than 50 years since America assumed world dominance, and more so after the end of the Cold War, it has run its Middle Eastern policy based on two principles, and two principles alone: the defence of Israel and the free flow of Arab oil, both of which involved direct opposition to Arab nationalism. In all significant ways, with few exceptions, American policy has been contemptuous of and openly hostile to the aspirations of the Arab people, although with surprising success since Nasser's demise it has had few challengers among the Arab rulers who have gone along with everything required of them.

During periods of the most extreme pressure on one or other of them (e.g. the Israeli invasion of Lebanon in 1982, or the sanctions against Iraq that were designed to weaken the people and the state as a whole, the bombings of Libya and Sudan, the threats against Syria, the pressure on Saudi Arabia), the collective weakness has been little short of stunning. Neither their enormous collective economic power nor the will of their people has moved the Arab states to even the slightest gesture of defiance. The imperial policy of divide and rule has reigned supreme, since each government seems to fear the possibility that it might damage its bilateral relationship with America. That consideration has taken precedence over any contingency, no matter how urgent. Some countries rely on American economic aid, others on American military protection. All, however, have decided that they do not trust each other any more than they care strongly for the welfare of their own people (which is to say they care very little), preferring the hauteur and contempt of the Americans who have gotten progressively worse in their dealings with the Arab states as the only superpower's arrogance has developed over time. Indeed, it is remarkable that the Arab countries have fought each other far more readily than they have the real aggressors from the outside.

The result today, after the invasion of Iraq, is an Arab nation that is badly demoralised, crushed and beaten down, less able to do anything except acquiesce in announced American plans to redraw the Middle East map to suit American and obviously Israeli interests. Even this extraordinarily grandiose scheme has yet to receive the vaguest collective answer from Arab states who seem to be hanging around waiting for something new to happen as Bush, Rumsfeld, Powell and the others lurch from threat to plan to visit to snub to bombing to unilateral announcement. What makes the whole business especially galling is that whereas the Arabs have totally accepted the American (or Quartet) roadmap that seems to have emerged from George Bush's waking dream, the Israelis have coolly withheld any such acceptance. How does it feel for a Palestinian to watch a second-rank leader like Abu Mazen, who has always been Arafat's faithful subordinate, embrace Colin Powell and the Americans when it is clear to the youngest child that the roadmap is designed a) to stimulate a Palestinian civil war and b) to offer Palestinian compliance with Israeli-American demands for "reform" in return for nothing much at all. How much further can we sink?

And as for American plans in Iraq, it is now absolutely clear that what is going to happen is nothing less than an old-fashioned colonial occupation rather like Israel's since 1967. The idea of bringing in American-style democracy to Iraq means basically aligning the country with US policy, i.e. a peace treaty with Israel, oil markets for American profit, and civil order kept to a minimum that neither permits real opposition nor real institution building. Perhaps even the idea is to turn Iraq into civil war Lebanon. I am not certain. But take one small example of the kind of planning that is being undertaken. It was recently announced in the US press that a 32-year-old assistant professor of law, Noah Feldman, at New York University, would be responsible for producing a new Iraqi constitution. It was mentioned in all the media accounts of this major appointment that Feldman was an extraordinarily brilliant expert in Islamic law, had studied Arabic since he was 15, and grew up as an Orthodox Jew. But he has never practiced law in the Arab world, never been to Iraq, and seems to have no real practical background in the problems of post-war Iraq. What an open-faced snub not only to Iraq itself, but also to the legions of Arab and Muslim legal minds who could have done a perfectly acceptable job in the service of Iraq's future. But no, America wants it done by a fresh young fellow, so as to be able to say, "we have given Iraq its new democracy". The contempt is thick enough to cut with a knife.

The seeming powerlessness of the Arabs in the face of all this is what is so discouraging, and not only because no real effort has been expended on fashioning a collective response to it. To someone who reflects on the situation from the outside as I do, it is amazing that in this moment of crisis there has been no evidence of any sort of appeal from the rulers to their people for support in what needs to be seen as a collective national threat. American military planners have made no secret of the fact that what they plan is radical change for the Arab world, a change that they can impose by force of arms and because there is little that opposes them. Moreover, the idea behind the effort seems to be nothing less than destroying the underlying unity of the Arab people once and for all, changing the bases of their lives and aspirations irremediably.

To such a display of power I would have thought that an unprecedented alliance between Arab rulers and people represented the only possible deterrence. But that, clearly, would require an undertaking by every Arab government to open its society to its people, bring them in so to speak, remove all the repressive security measures in order to provide an organised opposition to the new imperialism. A people coerced into war, or a people silenced and repressed will never rise to such an occasion. What we must have are Arab societies released finally from their self-imposed state of siege between ruler and ruled. Why not instead welcome democracy in the defence of freedom and self- determination? Why not say, we want each and every citizen willing to be mobilised in a common front against a common enemy? We need every intellectual and every political force to pull together with us against the imperial scheme to redesign our lives without our consent. Why must resistance be left to extremism and desperate suicide bombers?

As a digression, I might mention here that when I read last year's United Nations Human Development Report on the Arab World, I was struck by how little appreciation there was in it for imperialist intervention in the Arab world, and how deep and long-standing its effect has been. I certainly don't think that all our problems come from the outside, but I wouldn't want to say that all our problems were of our own making. Historical context and the problems of political fragmentation play a very great role, which the Report itself pays little attention to. The absence of democracy is partially the result of alliances made between Western powers on the one hand, and minority ruling regimes or parties on the other, not because the Arabs have no interest in democracy but because democracy has been seen as a threat by several actors in the drama. Besides, why adopt the American formula for democracy (usually a euphemism for the free market and little attention paid to human entitlement and social services) as the only one? This is a subject that needs considerably more debate than I have time for here. So let me return to my main point.

Consider how much more effective today the Palestinian position might have been under the US-Israeli onslaught had there been a common show of unity instead of an unseemly scramble for positions on the delegation to see Colin Powell. I have not understood over the years why it is that Palestinian leaders have been unable to develop a common unified strategy for opposing the occupation and not getting diverted into one or another Mitchell, Tenet, or Quartet plan. Why not say to all Palestinians, we face one enemy whose design on our lands and lives is well-known and must be fought by us all together? The root problem everywhere, and not just in Palestine, is the fundamental rift between ruler and ruled that is one of the distorted offshoots of imperialism, this basic fear of democratic participation, as if too much freedom might lose the governing colonial elite some favour with the imperial authority. The result, of course, is not only the absence of real mobilisation of everyone in the common struggle, but the perpetuation of fragmentation and petty factionalism. As things now stand, there are too many uninvolved, non- participating Arab citizens in the world today.

Whether they want to or not, the Arab people today face a wholesale attack on their future by an imperial power, America, that acts in concert with Israel, to pacify, subdue, and finally reduce us to a bunch of warring fiefdoms whose first loyalty is not to their people but to the great superpower (and its local surrogate) itself. Not to understand that this is the conflict that will shape our area for decades to come is willingly to blind oneself. What is now needed is a breaking of the iron bands that tie Arab societies into sullen knots of disaffected people, insecure leaders, and alienated intellectuals. This is an unprecedented crisis. Unprecedented means are therefore required to confront it. The first step then is to realise the scope of the problem, and then go on to overcome what reduces us to helpless rage and marginalised reaction, a condition by no means to be accepted willingly. The alternative to such an unattractive condition promises a great deal more hope.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

slumdog millinaire


two weeks ago, i watched this movie, slumdog millionaire. To be honest, i had no expectations whatsoever about the movie , basically because of some unpleasant previous experiences with Indian movies of which i am not a fan. however, i must admit that this movie is one remarkable journey that each one of us should live. India has always amazed me with the diversityof culture and identities it contains. yet i was always sad to learn about the high poverty rates, about the clashes between Muslims and Hindus and other disappointing sides of the life there
the narrative is told in a very refined cinematic style that opens doors of the unknown to you. Questions are indeed answered , but not the questions related to the program. as a matter of fact, the questions that are answered are the ones about us, the human nature , and about who we are by the end of day. these answers, despite being rather primitive, give more insight about life, humanity, and most importantly about the other whom we
tend to forget about

Saturday, January 9, 2010

i woke up this morning feeling terrible, i had enough of what is going on. i have been acting like a defeated soul lately , and i am done with that.

Friday, January 8, 2010

more freedom

the bus staggered through the sleepy streets of the city. i hate this ride as much as i love it. i enjoy the fresh sensation that the morning offers, but i fear the promises that the daylight seems to break... each morning, we lose an infinite particle of a finite existence. those who embrace such a loss,i salute you for the brave attempt to recapture what has been lost